Nothing changes here, it gets worse so I wouldnt write my memos, posts. I wonder what people who do evil terrible things and harm innocent people tell themselves, its impossible to be on the right side and justify doing these things, honesty doesnt go together with dishonesty, honor doesnt go together with being dishonourable, kindness doesnt go together with cruelty causing inhumane suffering, purity doesnt go together with sick and pervert things done to others to demean them and hurt them. You have to be either or, these things dont go together. You dont torture and abuse women and children while defending something good and if you do and when you do you cross the line which differentiate you from good to evil, simple as that, when you are good you are always good not because it is easy but because being something else will not be what you believe good is. Thats what I am thinking about, a man I knew told me what his Father told him when you choose a path of being good you stay on that path no matter what and it will not be easy, it will be very difficult, but you stay on it.